Tomorrow

Tomorrow we start over with the doctors.  I don't think we'll have too long of meeting with her .  But I will shave my legs just in case.

And so

And so we've now come full circle.  We are going to try the fertility treatment route again.  In the spring when I found out our wait was going to be at least another year for our second adoption, I felt like we were being lead down the same path as our first adoption.  I wanted to pull our file, I just wanted everything to be over, I didn't want this hanging over our heads anymore.  I was tired and just wanted to live my life.  I told DH that we'd tried everything and nothing was working.  It wasn't meant to be.  DH reminded me that we didn't try one route with our fertility treatments.  I said that I would try it and then when (not if) that didn't work, we'd be done, we'd pull our file.

DH agreed.  So that's where we are now.  We've waited months for an appointment and now it's days away.  I'm still not positive that it will work, it's been almost eight years of doing "the right thing" and nothing has worked.  So we will see what these doctors have to say and  where this next step towards our family take us.